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I have decided to join the craze and begin blogging. Who knows what will come of it. I find myself "going with the flow" and not in the laid back kind of way. I find myself not really knowing who I am and what I want at this point in my life. Actually no that's not true. Looking back I was beginning to drift along and do as others do. There by perpetuating my belief that there are very few original thought out there. I was and to some degree turning into my friends. I have chosen to take a step back and review, reorganize and revamp. Me, Myself and I . I don't want to conform I want to do my best to be an individual. It always upsets me when individuals (myself included), simple be and don't do. I was a doer and somewhere along life's journey I became a be'r.
NO MORE SAY I. For the past few months I have taken myself on a bit of a journey of self discover, not the kind involving meditation and a walk about. I have simply stepped back a bit to see what is going on. I know for many of my friends this has caused them to question who I am....but are we really friends. I want to know people I want to love people, and unfortunately many of my "friends" don;t want to be known and loved. I am tired of the surface relationships that we try to pass off as deep . I am tired of not speaking up and telling those around me how much they mean to me. I am tired of holding back whether it hurts or offends. I want to be the rawest realest person I know.
God put me here for a reason and I feel I am slipping. Slipping into what well that is a good question. I know if I asked my closes friends the one's that I do truly connect with they would say what are you talking about. "WELL I WANT MORE"